During the past year, I lost a close friend to cancer, found out that two of my friends have to leave their home, and made some business decisions that sent me into debt. On a more positive note, I began to read the Akashic records, gained clarity on how to move forward, increased my confidence as a medium, and gained even more appreciation for the people who have been supporting me on my journey.
Mostly, I’m learning to dance with the constant ebb and flow of life while allowing Spirit to take the lead. I’m learning to have compassion for myself. This is much more appealing than the state of resistance that we fall into at times.
It can be scary to live from the heart. It requires strength, courage and determination. When you choose this path, know that some people may not understand you and may even judge you. Some days, you may even feel lonely or slightly depressed. These periods are followed by the excitement and joy that comes from following your heart.
You may want to give up on your dreams, and there are going to be times when you’ll do anything to achieve them. This path can definitely feel like an emotional roller coaster at times, but it’s okay. Remember that you don’t have to do it alone.
Have you ever realized that sometimes, we treat others better than we treat ourselves? For example, I wouldn’t yell at another person in order to tell her what she should’ve done. I definitely wouldn’t tell that person that she wasn’t good enough or that she can’t do something.
However, I’ve often caught myself saying these very things to myself. We wouldn’t allow others to treat us that way, so why do we do that to ourselves?
I challenge every one of you to notice these thoughts as they come up. There is no need to judge them, though. Instead, know that you have the ability to choose a more empowering thought next time.
Whether you are a medium or not, you may have experienced the fear of visibility from time to time. I have been guided to share this part of my story with you in order to encourage you to stop hiding your light from the world. You were given certain abilities and strengths for a reason.
When I was 7 or 8 years old, I had my first experience with spirit communication that I could remember. I was woken up by something during the night, and I got up to get a glass of water. I went back to bed, and tried to fall asleep again. I was relaxed, but I was still awake when I had this experience. I saw a bright light coming toward me. My eyes are especially sensitive to bright lights, but this particular light didn’t hurt my eyes at all. Somehow, I knew that it was pure white light. For some reason, I was drawn to this light. Then, I heard gentle whispering in my ear. The voice said that he would always love me and would never leave me. Somehow, I knew that this being was Jesus. I was so excited because I couldn’t wait to tell everyone in church that Jesus was real.
I woke my mother to tell her about my experience, and she was excited for me. Although my brother didn’t believe me, I knew that I experienced something real. After that, I was encouraged to keep those experiences to myself. This, among other experiences that were unrelated to spirit communication, led me to develop the belief that it isn’t safe to be seen.
Through inner work, I have learned to release this fear and stop hiding my light from the world.
Several weeks ago, I was taking my daily walk when I happened to meet up with a friend. Instead of walking, I ended up going to her house for dinner. She invited me to a jazz club where her friend’s band was performing that night.
Since I knew this particular friend of hers, I decided to be spontaneous and go with her. As we were driving home from that event, I commented to her that I was glad that I decided to be spontaneous because I got to enjoy three of my favorite things. I also had another observation about that night. I wasn’t stuck in the past or planning the rest of the week in my head.
I was fully engaged in the present and enjoying every minute of it. It’s important to learn to do this because when we are engaged in the present moment, we’re not concerned with past mistakes, worrying about the future, or engaging in our fears. When we live outside of the present moment, it can take us away from seeing the truth of who we really are. Outside of the present moment, it’s difficult to see situations and people from an objective point of view. Also, when we are ruminating about the past or worrying about the future, it’s difficult to experience joy. Take a moment today to practice presence, and you’ll be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.
Yesterday, I had the opportunity to attend an arts inclusion event with people who are blind and visually impaired as well as sighted volunteers. In honor of Earth day, we were given clay and asked to sculpt something that reminds us of our planet. I decided to attempt a cat sculpture. I started with the head and formed a little cat face. I shaped its little ears, little nose and a mouth that was open as if the cat was about to meow.
Then, I created the cat’s body, its legs, and finally the tail. After I had finished, the cat felt slightly deformed. When I tried to fix it, the ears fell off, the mouth completely disappeared, the tail fell off, and the legs collapsed into themselves. What would’ve happened if I didn’t try to fix it? I realize that it is easy to have some resistence to the concept of being present, and it’s not always easy to do. However, it’s a much more enjoyable way to live life.
Instead of trying to make everything perfect and forcing life to comply with our expectations, maybe we need to start by accepting ourselves and circumstances exactly as they are right now. Then, we can decide whether changes need to be made at all.
Have you ever prayed for something and/or set an intention, but you never seem to receive an answer? It can be extremely frustrating and disappointing, especially when we are going through a difficult time.
However, I encourage you to consider another perspective. When we send out our prayers and intentions into the universe, are we open to receiving the subtle signs that our prayers are being answered even before we speak them? Perhaps we’re engaging in our constant mind chatter. There have been times when the constant mind chatter has kept me up at night, and it has even kept me from hearing my intuition.
Another reason that we may not believe that our prayers are being answered may be that we are expecting the answer to come to us in a certain way.For example, we may expect our answer to come to us in a dream. However, it may come to us through a song on the radio, a vision, or a gut feeling. If we are deadest on receiving the answer in a dream, we may miss the message altogether and assume that Spirit didn’t hear our prayers and intentions. As a result, we continue to repeat the cycle of asking, expecting a specific answer to come in a neat little package, and miss the message altogether.
Also, there are times when the answer is that we need to wait for something better, or maybe it just isn’t the right time. When I become frustrated by so-called unanswered prayers, Spirit assures me that they’re always listening.